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Rachel ([personal profile] theresnodoor) wrote2011-08-27 10:33 am

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When you fight for three years, you get used to the aspects of it. The secret keeping. The sudden pounding rush of adrenaline. The constant thrum of fear under your skin. The exhaustion. The rage. The helplessness and the power.

There are different kinds of 'get used to,' though.

There's the kind where, free of those constraints, you can relax. It never leaves entirely, but it ebbs. You don't miss it exactly but you recognize that you could go back to it in a heartbeat, if you needed to - and you tell yourself you don't want to.

There's another kind. Less readily admitted to.

The kind where you relax immediately. And slowly, surely, the thrum under your skin comes back. But the fear has a different flavor this time around, more restless than anything else.

The nice thing is, the solution is obvious.

The bad thing is, it's a solution you can't admit to.




Rachel does a lot of things to channel that thrum. Waking at dawn. Gymnastics routines. Runs around the lake. Training with the punching bag. Reading with Tobias. Talking, talking, talking to people. Morphing for fun.

But they're only channels, and none of them for much purpose.

There's only one thing that's given her true relaxation, release, since Milliways.


An afternoon walk in Milliways' forest and Rachel finds herself standing before a tall rock face, more than a hill but not quite a mountain. An opening several feet taller than she is - a rock cave.



Carved into the stone, a symbol she won't readily forget.



"...Daedalus."
slayer_fray: (acrobatics)

[personal profile] slayer_fray 2012-05-09 01:32 am (UTC)(link)
They'll burn that bridge when they come to it.

"Goddamn things," Mel mutters, but she has found a metaphorical light at the end of this literal tunnel.

And by 'light' we mean a ladder and a round carved stone cover, and by 'end' we mean top.

Mel wastes no time in leaping to the top of that ladder and pushing her way out.

"And we're out of the crapchute."

This has to be good, right?
slayer_fray: (explaining)

[personal profile] slayer_fray 2012-05-09 01:48 am (UTC)(link)
"Whenever you're ready."

Not that Mel's bitter about facing all the shit on her own.

She sits right down on the floor and starts digging at the suckers on her arms, legs and face. It would be an easier job if there wasn't a weird increasing weight on her shoulder.
slayer_fray: (surprised)

[personal profile] slayer_fray 2012-05-09 02:00 am (UTC)(link)
Mel was levering a sucker off her elbow when that happened, and she turns and stares at the thing growing out of the goop.

"OK, that's disgusting."
slayer_fray: (ow!)

[personal profile] slayer_fray 2012-05-09 05:37 pm (UTC)(link)
Mel smirks.

"Hey, telling people not to look is like putting a beacon on saying 'Look here!' People are people."

And this one is turning away because she's trying to lever a slug monster off her leg.

"Ow. Jesu."
slayer_fray: hands on forehead, rolling eyes up. (exasperated)

[personal profile] slayer_fray 2012-05-09 05:51 pm (UTC)(link)
The one that popped off on its own has left a much smaller wound that the others. Mel stares at it, and pokes the rosette of sucker marks left behind.

Slayer healing will set in in a few minutes, but for now, she looks like she's got some weird variant of the measles.

"You'll get used to the smell," she tells Rachel.

She did.
slayer_fray: (explaining)

[personal profile] slayer_fray 2012-05-09 06:30 pm (UTC)(link)
"They hurt more than they look like," Mel offers. She pokes at another, trying to figure out if she can replicate whatever it was that made the last one drop off so easily, but looks up enough to nod at the pink sludge Rachel just crushed further as she grew human feet.

"Don't freak out, but one mighta tried to eat you."

Mel didn't know at the time!
slayer_fray: (surprised)

[personal profile] slayer_fray 2012-05-09 10:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Mel turns her head, and looks at the thing on the ground. Then up at Rachel.

"...


"What did you just do? I've been pulling at these for ages."
slayer_fray: (tolerant)

[personal profile] slayer_fray 2012-05-10 10:42 pm (UTC)(link)
Mel glances at her, weighing the need to remark on the fact that she knows what dolphins and jellyfish feel like, against the fact that she can turn into at least two different types of animals so hey, maybe she can do dolphins and jellyfish too.

(Are jellyfish animals? Mel is pretty certain they're not plants.)

After further pondering of whether to remark Rachel's apparent magic touch with dolphin sucker things, Mel again decides against words and instead chooses to give it a go herself.

Rub aaaand plop. Another comes off.

She'll be doing that with the others, then.
slayer_fray: (explaining)

[personal profile] slayer_fray 2012-05-10 10:56 pm (UTC)(link)
The last one comes off, and Mel holds it up to squint at it, then look down at the five red marks it left on her skin.

"I've got those all over, haven't I?"

Hooray for Slayer healing, though! The first few are already fading.
slayer_fray: (thoughtful)

[personal profile] slayer_fray 2012-05-10 11:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Mel shrugs.

"Not really got time to feel bad about squishing everything that tries to eat me."

Standing with the little monster waving its tentacles in her hand, she looks back to find the cover she came up through - and comes up blank.

"Hope they don't get all dried up outside of sewers, though."
slayer_fray: (explaining)

[personal profile] slayer_fray 2012-05-10 11:18 pm (UTC)(link)
"Start thinking like that and you'll start wondering it I'm real," Mel says. "And I'll hafta hit you to prove it and we'll get nowhere."

She's oh-so-cheerful with this. Abandoning pink sucker dude to his friends, she follows Rachel over to the table.
slayer_fray: (smug)

[personal profile] slayer_fray 2012-05-10 11:36 pm (UTC)(link)
"Oh hey," says Mel, "a classic lit reference that even I get."

She scoops the bottle up in her hand and shakes the liquid inside it by her ear, listening to it slosh. Then she grabs the cookie in her other hand.

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